Improving Life One Experiment At A Time

2019 IGNITED WOMXN SUMMIT – PART 3

ANXIETY’S MANY FORMS

It always fascinates me how anxiety can rear its ugly head in the most unexpected ways. When I made bought my ticket for the Ignited Womxn Summit and made my hotel reservation, I chose to get a single room to have a safe sanctuary to escape to. This is highly important for us introverts to keep from getting overwhelmed. While I didn’t spend as much time in my room as I thought I would, mainly because the women I met were so freaking awesome and supportive, it was nice to have the option.

What I didn’t expect was to have nightmares the first night. I can’t even remember the last time I had one. Usually, my dreams are cinematic action adventure movies that bounce around from one storyline to another. Not this time. Nope, instead, I woke myself up trying to scream because of the person who broke into my room and stood menacingly next to my bed as I slept. Weirdly, it was a woman, not a man. Not sure what that means. I eventually woke myself up, calmed myself down, and then fell back to sleep, and into yet another nightmare. This one had yellow and green ants crawling all over my body (creepy!). Needless to say, I didn’t sleep well that night.

ACKNOWLEDGING ANXIETY

When I really stopped to think about it, it made sense. This was my first solo trip in over a decade, the weather was causing potentially unsafe travel conditions, and I wasn’t sure what to expect from the summit. Would I connect with people or feel awkward and stand in the corner silently by myself? I thought I had taken steps to manage my stress. Instead, I realize I was not addressing the anxiety and pretending to be braver than I actually felt. I now know that I need to be more expressive to keep the anxiety from appearing in new and unusual ways. Does this sound familiar? What are the methods you use to manage your stress? I’d love to hear so that I can see if they would work for me.

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