ANXIETY’S MANY FORMS
It always fascinates me how anxiety can rear its ugly head in the most unexpected ways. When I made bought my ticket for the Ignited
What I didn’t expect was to have nightmares the first night. I can’t even remember the last time I had one. Usually, my dreams are cinematic action adventure movies that bounce around from one storyline to another. Not this time. Nope, instead, I woke myself up trying to scream because of the person who broke into my room and stood menacingly next to my bed as I slept. Weirdly, it was a woman, not a man. Not sure what that means. I eventually woke myself up, calmed myself down, and then fell back to sleep, and into yet another nightmare. This one had yellow and green ants crawling all over my body (creepy!). Needless to say, I didn’t sleep well that night.
When I really stopped to think about it, it made sense. This was my first solo trip in over a decade, the weather was causing potentially unsafe travel conditions, and I wasn’t sure what to expect from the summit. Would I connect with people or feel awkward and stand in the corner silently by myself? I thought I had taken steps to manage my stress. Instead, I realize I was not addressing the anxiety and pretending to be braver than I actually felt. I now know that I need to be more expressive to keep the anxiety from appearing in new and unusual ways. Does this sound familiar? What are the methods you use to manage your stress? I’d love to hear so that I can see if they would work for me.